Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Greetings from CAMH

A funny thing happened on the way to South Africa -- I ended up in a mental hospital instead. Still trying to figure out what's going on -- but as long as I'm here, the likelyhood that I'll find myself wandering the streets for days with a couple of suitcases in hand, pulling knives on strangers are fairly low. Could be severe depression, could be hypomanic bipolar. SSRIs seem to be working for now, but it will be a while before we know anything for certain.

I wish I had seen this coming. It could have saved a lot of people a lot of trouble, and may even have saved a life. Sorry.

28 comments:

Adi said...

Hi Stan - from the swarm of emails in my inbox I know there are a lot of prayers and concerns for you out there, and has been for the last few weeks. Most of those can not be there for you in person, but you are in our thoughts and remember that hundreds if not thousands of fans out there care for you. I'm so thankful you are alive, perhaps not as ok as I would have wished for, but as long as you are safe and cared for, for the time being, that is a leap from where you might have been. You know (and sorry for the cliché)... life happens when we are making other plans. Thank you for letting us know what has happened. Look out for my email later tonight, please, if you have access to it.

Ed Brill said...

Take care of yourself, Stan. I hope all works out for the best for you.

Joe Litton said...

Stan,
Dang, man, glad you surfaced! Hopefully you already know this, but DO just give a shout - via email or blog post - if there's ANYthing you need. Along with, I am sure, many others, I am honored to help out in any way possible.

Best wishes,
Joe

Rock (Lotus Geek) said...

Stan, take care of yourself, and concentrate on getting better. Remember, you have many, many people here for you, pulling for you. You're one of "us", and we take care of our own.

Keep us posted, and let us know if you need anything!

--Rock

Anthony said...

I'm very pleased you're safe and mending. I was assuming that you were in a warm Cape Town embrace by now; I'm still looking forward to meeting the generous man that you are. Take care, and be gentle with yourself.

Rob McDonagh said...

Stan, I hope your mental health continues to improve. If you ever want to compare notes on SSRI's or the reasons we take them, give me a ping. Be well, sir.

Ed Maoney said...

Stan, if i see the camh.net site running on Domino... I'll assume that you're feeling better!
Be well - the Notes/Domino community needs you.

-Ed

Ben Poole said...

Thanks for letting us know how you're doing, and keep at it my good man.

Benoit Dubuc said...

As many already said, I am so happy to finally get some news from you.

Don't give up, man... we're all behind you (and no pressure intended here: the LDD forum will live on without you... for a while ;)

Seriously, I think there's a lot of us that care about you, and not on a technical side.

I put my name on the list of "If you need something, let me know". A drive to Ontario is not a big thing to help a buddy!!!

Take care and take the time it needs to get back on your feet (I didn't and I am struggling a bit because of that).

Ben

Alan Lepofsky said...

My best wishes to you... Alan Lepofsky

Jess said...

Hi Stan,
We're just glad you're safe. You may not realize it, but we all notice when you disappear. As Rock said it best, "we take care of our own." When you're ready, we'll still be here.

brandt said...

Glad to hear that you're still out there Stan...keep the faith brother.

Karen said...

Stan,
Same sentiment as every other poster on here - so glad you're okay, and don't hesitate to ask for anything.

Y'know, I'm sure you'd rather not have mental health issues, but your openness and honesty with what's going on in your life does everyone good. It's admirable, and endearing. I have a feeling you don't know any other way to be, but whether you're trying to make the world a better place or not, you are. Don't give up.

Ben Langhinrichs said...

It is certainly good to know you are OK. Let me know if there is anything I can do.

gregg eldred said...

As you can tell, Stan, a lot of us were worried/concerned about you. Thank for the update and take care. If there is anything I, or any of us can do, please let us know.

Jerry Carter said...

Wow Stan. I know from things you have said in the past that your life has had it's ups and downs - but I never could have grasped the magnitude.

Continue to have courage, and get well soon.

Anonymous said...

*HUG* Take care of yourself, Stan. I can send you another panda postcard if it'll make you feel better. *grin*
Debbie

Fabian aka harkpabst_meliantrop said...

Jumping in late, but still want to add my get-well-soon wishes. You'll be missed while sorting things out and there's going to be a big online party (whatever that means) as soon as you're back.

Anonymous said...

Dear Stan,

Hadn't checked your blog for a while, but I saw a response you posted to a query on the Notes Forum yesterday, so thought I'd check out your progress to South Africa.

After the initial shock of seeing that you're in hospital faded, I had to go back to the forum to check -- you couldn't possibly be continuing to help people solve their Notes problems from hospital, could you???

Of course you could; I should have known better.

It's a bit hard to offer to drive to Toronto to help in some way (from Melbourne, Australia), but I'm glad that others have made that offer. And I hope that in some way the best wishes and concerns from friends and colleagues all over the world can help support you in your recovery.

Helen.

Chris Coates said...

Keep Safe & Stay Strong Stan

Coatsie

Nathan T. Freeman said...

Stan, why on earth are you looking to go TO SA? Please, if you're still thinking of going, talk to me first. Frankly, I think something getting in the way of you moving there might be the best thing that could have happened to you.

Please, please, PLEASE talk to me if you're still considering moving there. Especially if you're looking to go to Jo'burg.

Karen said...

I wish you a speedy recovery and thank you for being so open. I was just listening to Margaret Trudeau on TV this morning talking about her journey with BP. It's a great thing that you are getting help. Be well.

Anonymous said...

Definitely wish you the best. I would encourage you to use your downtime to talk to Christ and ask for healing. He doesn't want you to carry this burden, Stan. The health issues are likely just a symptom of something deeper...I know, I've been there, and will struggle for the rest of my natural days...but I have Christ who helps me thru. Maybe He has led you to this place you are in so that you realize the real issues and can gain true perspective on the source, and then get the help you need. I'll pray for your suffering to end!

Scott Good said...

Hi Stan -- Sorry to be late to the party. I'm very sorry to hear about your condition and hope you're getting better. Good luck!

Anonymous said...

Dear Stan.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself!
Get out there, have fun, do yourself a favour and get laid, dude!

Anonymous said...

Any news?

Ben Dubuc said...

Stan, don't have a clue to where you are and how you are, but I wanted to wish you all the best for the new year.

We miss ya...

Anonymous said...

Stan, I wish you a merry christmas and a better new year.
Henning