Friday, September 16, 2005

Thanks, folks.

Just a quick note to say thank-you to all of those who have responded to my previous posting (and not all of the responses were posted here). I feel a lot better about the direction I'm taking now. And believe me, given my history, it's a lot easier to fall into the "what the hell have I done" thinking pattern than the "future's so bright I gotta wear shades" one.

Everyone needs a certain amount of stress to function properly. Eu-stress, the psychologists call it. I didn't really understand, though, how far past that certain amount, how deeply into dys-stress (or distress), I had gone until it was lifted for a while. With your help, I feel that load lifting again.

That being said, I'd still rather do this with a more substantial portfolio of liquid assets. But when all is said and done, I'd rather live with a bit of uncertainty than have a biweekly paycheque and monthly heart attacks....

9 comments:

Howard said...

If I may be so bold.(And if you haven't already read it)
Flow

Ben Dubuc said...

Hi Stan. I heard things were not going so well at the office, but it had nothing to do with you. I am surprised and not surprised at the same time with you leaving the job...

I know exactly what you're going through as I've been there a few months ago. If it wasn't for my sleep problems, I would have gone on sick leave anyway as I just couldn't do stupid things anymore. I am still doing such things, but doing them from home is a lesser pain. I have a family and uncertainty is a luxury I can't have. Although it is very tempting...

I feel a bit bad about all this. After all, I'm the one who brought you here... Shame on me... But I can defend myself saying that the job didn't turn out as expected for non of us (except Dan). If I had knew then, I would have stayed at the job I had before CHC. But that's life, I guess. Still, I feel bad about all this, and I apolagize for all the trouble.

I just realized I don't have your gmail address. Can you give me a shout at dubuc_benoit at hotmail.com? Hopefully, we'll keep in touch...

Good luck with all your projects and may peace and quiet be part of your life again!

From a guy that understands very well what you're going throug...

Ben

Stan Rogers said...

No need to feel bad, Ben. I've had no problem with the team, and I did have a good run when we had more than just the client from hell to work with. We have been changing the rules of engagement a bit, and I can't say that I envy Dan, who is basically taking a lot of heat from both sides here -- developers that want to do the job right on one side, and a paralyzed client organisation on the other. Things are heading towards where they need to be, but I won't make it that far.

Oh -- one of the geo "projects"* you handed off to me still hasn't been approved for implementation. I have reason to believe that they're waiting for the Big One, the earthquake that makes California break off into the Pacific, before they finalize their regional divisions....

*For outside readers, that's a client code word for a 100-hour block of process and paperwork surrounding a data change agent that takes, at most, a half-day to write and test in a sane environment.

Ben Dubuc said...

I don't envy Dan either, but what I'm saying is that he is in a position he wanted and that's what he likes. Like us if we had been authorized to convert that freaking RASA timesheet app to use DECS or something.

All in all, I think it's a general situation in the IT world: no new big stuff is being created and it's mostly maintenance and color changes. My new job is not really different than the client from hell, just that I'm home, which is cool 'cause no one sees when I'm crying or yawning becaus eI'm bored to death...

; )

Stan Rogers said...

Ben, if you're still out there -- I've gotten two delivery failures trying to reply to your question (he problem is that the text is in a TD, so the TD needs to be styled too). Videotron is letting you send with the alias you're using, but it gives a 550 when I try to send to it. Do you have another alias I can use? Or a VL-name?

Ben Dubuc said...

Thanks for the warning about the replies. That explains a few emails I sent that never had replies...

I figured out the TD thing, but thanks anyway.

Pat was telling me about the red book thing: that would be cool...

Keep it up, life will get better soon!

Anonymous said...

Hey Stan - I went through something similar a few years ago. I was commuting for about 1.5 hours each way, and the job had become less and less enjoyable, and finally I said "screw it". Remember, I have a family including 5 kids - so the decision to go out on my own didn't come lightly.

But I had a similar response from my family that Jess had from Matt. My wife said I was much calmer, smiled more, slept better, etc. A big part of that, at least for me, was the commute. Now when I am in traffic I feel the stress take me over, and I can't believe I lived through that 3 hours/day before.

I could make a lot more money, but I love my lifestyle now. I work from home so I am effectively a "stay at home dad" - and I probably see my kids, and I am involved more in their lives than most working parents. And that involvement with my family is well worth any extra money I am giving up by not being a slave to my career.

So, plan your move, trust your abilities, work your network of friends, associates, etc. (the most valuable asset you have - even more valuable than your skills) and you'll come out the other side in a better place.

--Rock
http://www.lotusgeek.com

Stan Rogers said...

Jeez, Rock -- if I knew I was going to need friends I probably would have made more along the way :o)

Thanks for the ecouragement. I can be thankful that the only one with his butt on the line here is me, but at the same time, when I get the cold feet syndrome there's no-one there to talk me out of talking myself out of taking the easy way out. Well, except for you good folks. Glad you're around.

Jess said...

Rock, you hit the nail on the head with one simple line: "Trust your abilities".

It's one thing to have the abilities, it's trusting them that's the hardest part, and not short-changing yourself. Believe your own hype. :-)

Oh, and you said "when I get the cold feet syndrome there's no-one there to talk me out of talking myself out of taking the easy way out."

All these problems could be easily avoided with an IM client, you know. The benefit of the Lotus community is that we (they) are worldwide. So even if you wake up at 3AM with cold feet, there's probably still someone around to talk to. :-)